Pity Party

I wish I could tell you that I never whine and complain and that I never create my own personal little pity party. I wish that were true. Even though I trust the Lord with every area of my life, I still have those days when I can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel. However, I’m grateful that over the years I’ve learned to rest in His mercy and grace in my life.

There used to be a time when I would beat myself up over having a pity party because I knew, that I should know better. I learned that as I continued to beat myself up the recovery was so much longer. As I’ve grown in my relationship with the Lord, I watched as my faith grew as well. When I find myself going down that road of whining, and complaining, I immediately change my attitude from fear to faith and go to scripture.

Not too long ago I was whining and complaining because I had not been offered a new contract to teach. As an instructor, I am hired to teach a class when the classes are available. Basically, I am a contract worker. My livelihood depends upon keeping under a contract at all times. That is important because it means that when one class ends another one begins without a gap. This time of year is always a tough time because there aren’t many contracts open. That’s because many students don’t want to attend class during the holiday season. As a result, if students don’t sign up to take a class, they don’t need an instructor to teach a class.

A few weeks ago, my contract was ending and a new one had not been offered. I knew from experience that if I didn’t get a contract soon, I would not be able to get on the roster until February. That would mean no paychecks during the holiday season. During my pity party a few weeks ago, I kept waking up in the middle of the night tossing and turning about not having a new contract. But as soon as I caught myself whining, I stopped and began quoting scripture until I fell asleep. I woke up a few hours later to the sound of the alarm clock. I said my morning prayers and then I heard a ding that signaled me that a new email had arrived. I grabbed my phone and went directly to my email. At the top of the list was an email with a very familiar subject. It said, “Sandra are you interested in teaching…”  A class had arrived for me to teach!

On those days when you find yourself having a pity party, do not beat yourself up. You are human, and you will make mistakes. I encourage you to leave the party immediately and let the Lord drive you home!

5 casting down arguments and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ, 2 Corinthians 10:5

Blessings,

Sandra

 

 

 

 

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s