I’m sure I’m not the only one who’s had disappointments. We all have those days and times when things don’t go the way that we want. I know there have been times when my disappointments overshadowed the things the Lord told me that lifted me up. That’s what happened last week. I had some great highs and some deep lows. The lows were hard, and I struggled with finding the joy. When I let that happen, I could not hear the Lord. My mind was overwhelmed with the cares and worries over the situation that was bothering me.
As I struggled with disappointment it reminded me that over the past couple of months I had been studying and meditating on the biblical term “cried out. “ I wondered when someone ”cried out” in the bible how different that from “regular prayer.“ It seemed to be different I just was not sure how. When my thoughts shifted to my studies on crying out, I found I naturally started “crying out” to the Lord about my circumstances and began praying from deep in my heart.
On the third day, I woke up and I opened my devotional for the day. At the end of each daily devotion is a personal prayer. The prayer for the day was very simple. It said, “Thank you, father, for walking with me on this difficult journey, and hearing me when I cry out.” That little prayer hit me like a ton of bricks. I knew right then this was the Lord speaking to me. It wasn’t a coincidence or a fluke that I had been studying about “crying out.” Also, I had been praying for two or three days using those very words, and now I see them in my devotional.
When I said the prayer, I felt a burden lifted off my shoulders. I knew then that my spirit was clear to hear the Lord. With my spirit ready, I headed out the door for a cup of coffee. The coffee shop that I go to is in a small strip mall. As I drove through the mall parking lot, I noticed a homeless woman asleep on a bench. As I drove past her, the Lord told me to go and pray for her. So, I parked my car near the coffee shop and walked to her location.
When I got to her, I asked her was she OK. She told me that she was homeless, but she was fine. To my surprise, as I spoke with her, I found out that she use to be a prayer warrior for the same ministry that I worked for. Since she was there before I started, I did not know who she was. I asked her if she wanted some food, and she told me that she didn’t need food; all she needed was prayer. Naturally, I didn’t find that to be a coincidence either that two prayer warriors would end up at the same place at the same time working for the same company and one needed prayer, and one was sent to pray.
I prayed for her and left. When I got to church the worship, leader went to the podium and said that the Lord told him that there was someone in the church who needed to hear what he had to say. In a nutshell, he said, “There’s someone here who had some disappointments last week. Those disappointments have overwhelmed you, causing you to focus on the disappointment and not on the word the Lord has given you over your situation. He is saying to get back to him. To leave those disappointments behind and not let them sidetrack you. The no that you received last week was not up to you. It was up to Him. What he has for you may very well come tomorrow.” My heart was overwhelmed. I was almost in tears. At the end of the service, the pastor gave an altar call for everyone dealing with disappointment. I went to the altar and received what the Lord had for me.
As I left the church, I was shaking from head to toe and thinking about how these were not random events, but they were events that were supernaturally linked. Each event connected like a long chain.
4 I cried out to the LORD, AND he answered me from his holy mountain. Psalm 3:4