A few weeks ago I had to make some decisions about the medical benefits I wanted for the upcoming year. My initial thought was that I would just go in and reapply for all the benefits I had for last year. But that was not the Lords plan.
On the day enrollment was to begin I woke up, and the first thing the Lord told me was to cancel my medical benefits at work and to move the money I would save to my 401(k). As soon as he said it, I jumped up in bed and yelled, “That is a great idea!” I am a veteran, and I can get my medical care at my local VA hospital without a monthly charge. I was so overwhelmed with excitement. When I got to work, I logged on and declined medical coverage for the next year.
A couple of days later fear hit me because I thought, oh my goodness, I think that there were certain benefits that came with having medical insurance at work that I would lose if I drop medical coverage. When I printed out my selections for the upcoming year, all I saw was the word DECLINED. None of the things I thought I would have regardless of if I had medical insurance were also gone. This freaked me out. Having the right coverage is important, and from what I could tell I did not have all the coverage I needed. I was in fear mode, completely forgetting what the Lord told me to do in the first place. Fearful I would lose benefits I thought I might need, I changed my elections to keep my medical insurance.
On the last day of the enrollment period, a coworker asked me a question about his benefit selections. I wasn’t sure of the answer, so I told him I would get the answer for him. I contacted our benefits representative and asked her. In that conversation, she not only answered his question she also unknowingly confirmed for me that I would not lose the additional coverage I thought I would lose. That’s when it hit me. I went full circle. First, I was going to keep the same coverage as last year, and then the Lord said no, so I dropped the medical coverage; then I freaked out and took the coverage back, and finally, I went back and did what the Lord told me to do in the first place.
I thought of all the time I spent struggling, researching, doubting and questioning if I really heard him in the first place. What a waste of time. I felt so bad! My heart ached with the thought of doubting Him. But that ache quickly changed to love, as I realized how he orchestrated a coworker asking me a question that provided two answers, on the last day of enrollment. Praise God He never gives up on us.
6 I pray with great faith for you, because I’m fully convinced that the One who began this glorious work[a] in you will faithfully continue the process of maturing you[b] and will put his finishing touches to it until the unveiling of our Lord Jesus Christ! Philippians 1:6 The Passion Translation