Several weeks ago, I spent two days consumed with a personal situation. The situation was on my mind to the point my brain was cluttered with emotion. I could not think clearly. I kept calling out to the Lord, but I did not hear a response. Each day I became more and more depressed as I searched for his voice. I kept asking how long it would be before I heard his voice again? How long would it be before I felt peace regarding my situation? Then on the third day, I heard him.
While getting dressed for work I heard the Lord say, “John died. Pray for his family.” As soon as I heard his voice, I had mixed feelings. I was saddened by the news of John’s death yet relieved to hear his voice. I said, “Thank you, Jesus, for speaking!” Though I was sad at the news, I was not shocked. John was an older gentleman, and he had not been well. He had been in and out of the hospital twice in less than a week. The fact that the Lord told me that he died was not out of the ordinary considering his condition. In obedience to the Lord’s request, I stopped, and I said a prayer for his family.
When I arrived at work, I had not been in my office for five minutes when one of the executives walked in. I said, “Good morning, how are you?” She said, “Good.” I said, “Well you don’t look so good.” I could tell when I looked at her that there was something wrong. Her words did not match her demeanor. She said, “Oh, well no. John died over the weekend.” I gasped at the news. I closed my eyes and covered my face and said, “I knew it! The Lord told me this morning he died.” Even though he had already told me hearing the news was a shock.
After she left, I sat in my office in silence. I was humbled to be used by the Lord to pray for John’s family, and I also realized I had peace about my personal situation. Once the Lord spoke my anxiety disappeared. The personal situation was not resolved, but it did not matter. Suddenly it was not very important. I had finally heard the Lords’ voice loud and clear.
8 Do not be afraid or discouraged, for the Lord will personally go ahead of you. He will be with you; he will neither fail you nor abandon you.” Deuteronomy 31:8