I don’t know about you, but sometimes I find myself getting up each day and working through a daily to-do list. Though they’re good, and I use one myself, I find myself preoccupied with the list and its completion. My preoccupation is to the point that sometimes the Lord seems to be off in the distance while I’m working on the tasks. I know it is not because He moved but because I moved Him. This bothered me, so I prayed and asked the Lord to help me stay in his presence every day and all day. Yes, I know he is always there, but sometimes it feels like he is there in-between item number three and item number four when I take a break and acknowledge Him. This was so bothersome I started praying this prayer fervently. As I did, I noticed that I began to stay in his presence longer and longer each day.
One day last week as I was in my office working I felt the presence of the Lord come upon me very strong. While in his presence he said, “Now go heal somebody.” When I heard this, I said, “Is that you?” I was trying to confirm if that command really came from the Lord. Before I completed asking the question, I immediately knew it was Him, so I said, “Show me,” and I jumped up out of my chair. As I walked out of my office, I was raising my hands in victory, saying, “Okay!”, and “Yes!”
I left my office, and I went out on to the call center floor and looked around the room at all the agents. Immediately I was drawn to an agent who was leaning back in his chair with one of his hands on his chest. I knew this was whom the Lord wanted me to pray for healing. I couldn’t disturb the business, so I walked in his direction but walked past his desk so I could get behind him to see if he was on a call. I looked at his screen, and I could tell that he wasn’t on a call. Instead he was on break, and he had his earbuds on, and he was listening to some music. I walked over to him and asked him if he was all right and if he needed healing. He said he was fine and that he did not need healing. I said, are you sure? He said, yes.
I walked away, and while walking, I asked the Lord if I missed something because I thought that he was the one he wanted me to pray for healing. I looked across the room again, but I was still drawn to this one person. Confused I decided to go and check in the breakroom. There were a few people in the breakroom, so I stopped and stood still for about a minute to hear from the Lord. Though I didn’t stand very long, I guess I stood there long enough for someone to ask me if I was okay. I told them I was fine, and went back out onto the call center floor. The guy I had offered healing to earlier was still on break, so I went back over to him again and asked him if he needed prayer. He told me no, he was fine. I was convinced by now that I had missed whatever the Lord wanted me to do regarding healing, and so I left, and I went back to my office.
When I got back into my office, I started talking to the Lord, and I told Him I did not understand. His presence was still very strong, so I felt He still wanted me to heal someone. I wanted to be obedient, so I went back out onto the floor and began to look across the room again. As I stood looking around the room another agent sitting near me looked at me puzzled. I said, “The Lord sent me out here to heal someone, but I do not know who it is.” She then looked around the room, then she looked at me, and she said, “It’s him.” She was motioning toward the guy I had already asked at least three times if he needed healing. I said, “What? I already asked him at least twice, and he told me no!” She said with confidence, “It’s him!” I looked over at him, and he was off his break and back on the phone, so I could not speak with him. Also, I no longer felt the Lord’s presence the way I did earlier so I turned around and went to my office.
When I got back to my office, I said, “Lord I tried, but I guess he just wasn’t ready.” I stood in my office knowing we were both deprived of a wonderful blessing. He missed his healing, and I missed my opportunity to be used by the Lord. I thanked the Lord for his presence in my life and his desire to use me, and prayed that in the future there would be no more missed opportunities and everyone would be ready when the time came.
42 “Therefore, be alert, because you don’t know on what day your Lord will return. Matthew 24:42