One day I was talking to the Lord, or I guess I should say I was whining. I was talking about how the enemy’s voice is loud and thunderous and how he walks around like a roaring lion. And how the word tells us that His voice is small and still. I was whining about how sometimes His voice is so hard to discern I feel like I have to ask him to do something specifically so that he can confirm that I was hearing from Him. I’ll do anything the Lord tells me to do as long as I know that its him. You know what I mean, that I know, that I know, that I know it’s him!
One day while in the shower I was speaking with the Lord about how I was having some difficulty with a person at work. Our personalities are opposites. I had tried everything I knew how to try to have an amicable relationship with this person, but it wasn’t working. The more I tried to make peace, the more they fought. It got to the point where it was difficult to come to work. The only thing to do was to avoid each other. This situation bothered me so much that I began to have trouble sleeping.
That evening while lying in bed the Lord told me to talk to my supervisor about the situation. I didn’t want to have the conversation with my supervisor, so I said, “No Lord, I do not want to talk to her. I want to talk to you. Why can’t I talk to you?” He said, “Because you are not in this alone.” Still trying to avoid having a conversation with my supervisor I stupidly said, “Lord if you want me to tell my supervisor about this issue then you are going to have to tell her to ask me point-blank if I’m having any issues with this person, and to name the person by name.” I then fell asleep figuring I would never have to have the discussion. Let me repeat the word stupid right about now.
The next day when I was at work, I stopped by my supervisor’s office to ask a question. Once I got my answer, and just before I walked out the door. She looked at me and asked, “How are things going between you and X?” Immediately I threw my head back, and I laughed and plopped down in the chair. I told her what the Lord had said the night before and I told her about the issues I was having with X.
Praise God he is a merciful God, even when we do not trust him, and yes even when we are stupid.
Oh, give thanks to the Lord, for He is good! For His mercy endures forever. Psalm 136